Magic and too many admirers

1/24/2008 - Last night's dream

My former lead at work, who is now in another department, comes to talk to me. He's always been somewhat serious around me, now I realize that he knows that I too was going to be selected for some mysterious and magical mission, which I am now part of. He comes to tell me. He is also in this organization. People get chosen. He explains it to me, we go into a room at work and lock the door. I get transported somewhere else after he tells me, which is part of it. There's a gigantic black and white kitten and some other kind of animal. They will be in further contact with me, but I now know that I have access to these magical resources and will be going back and forth for their missions. I feel good and kind of excited about it, although he is very serious about it, it's not all fun and games. We also have to keep it a secret from those not involved. This is all very detailed but I can only recall the broad picture.

In the same dream, the other main thread is that I have about 5 guys who are interested in me but I am not particularly interested in most of them so I need to prune them down. I feel kind of bad about this but it's getting out of hand. There's one guy who is tall, thin, he looks sort of like a taller, blond version of the Betty's boyfriend on "Ugly Betty." He comes over to my room or apartment (which seems to be in an area that looks like R- near my mother's office) after I find out about the magical thing and talks to me, telling me that he loves me. I feel kind of indifferent, which I feel bad about. I try to think about who I have loved, and how did I end up with so many people interested in me (kind of funny since I've never had this problem in real life). I was involved with this guy for a while, then we split up for about a month and during that time I got involved with another guy, who is also still interested in me, also light hair but shorter than this guy and shaggier hair. I'm not particularly interested in him either, but have been involved with them both. Now I'm back with this guy, but trying to break it off with both of them. I tell him about the other guy but that doesn't deter him. There's also a third guy who's not present at the time, with dark hair I think, and then I remember J- (my husband in real life, though apparently just an interest here), and another person I used to be in love with in real life. I cross him off already since I had determined it wouldn't work out with him. When I think about it, it seems like J-, although I don't appear to be involved with him at the time, is the only one that I ever had really strong feelings for (except the other guy I loved but that was less so and he won't work). So, I decided to pare down the others. I try to break it gently to this guy, but he's crazy about me, and I know the other one is too. I've already told the other one I think. He tells me how much he cares about me and wants to prove it to me. I just don't really have many feelings for him but I go along becuase I feel bad about being mean to him. I'll keep trying to drop him. All these guys trying to get my attention tire me out.

I end up walking down my aunt & uncles driveway with my cousin K- and my brother. I am wearing a poncho. We are on some kind of mission. Someone (my sister? but then she's not there) comments that we make a pretty good team. I don't remember what we're going to do. When we get down to the road, facing the chicken yard fence/orchard area, we all make a wish about what we want. I know that my wish is going to happen, unlike the others, becuase of my new magic available to me through being chosen for this mysterious project. I wish for something to be able to make people stop loving me, since I don't care about them. When I open my eyes after wishing, I see the apple tree in front of me has grown some apples, and I know that they are poisoned apples, poisoned not to kill but to kill the love for me. They are huge and grotesquely deformed into weird shapes, although they appear healthy. I pick one which is large and awkward like a zucchini, but apple colored. I wonder how I'm going to test it and I think i try it, but it tastes normal. I decided to give it to the smaller guy first who I'm having less trouble with, and then the main boyfriend to make him stop mooning over me, so I'll have fewer of them to worry about and they'll be happier too.

The whole premise seems rather odd, not the me being chosen for the serious and mysterious magical project so much as me having too many admirers, that I'm not interested in (but going along with anyway), and wanting to get rid of them somehow.

Mysterious Glowing Rocks, Age Control

Tuesday Night, 8/14
Something is going on up on the new logging road, at the end of the road. Signs are put up indicating that there is going to be some kind of explosion tonight as they try to unearth some kind of large rock (with the idea that people will go to watch the excavation). We toy with the idea of going to it, but end up not. As evening falls, word gets out that something strange has been discovered. It is a large sandstone rock but it has transparent parts, and inside is a glowing green cavity. The area is now restricted. Everybody speculates about it. My father mentions that he ran into some police in the woods earlier as they were wandering around sectioning off the area. They had Geiger counters to test for radioactivity (he cannot remember what these are called, I supply the word. Then the family starts discussing how it is actually pronounced... "jijer, jiger, giger, gijer").

Later I am thinking about that hollow rock they found and playing with an inflatable globe. The air keeps going out, but there is a patch over the north pole which can be positioned to prevent the air from going out so fast. I fiddle with this for some time, deflating, inflating, and putting the patch over the hole.

I am back in my apartment. My brother is there. He is very young, and running around playing with a squirtgun. In the dream I am aware that he is not really that young, and that I should update his activities (and appearance) to be more appropriate to his real age, perhaps lounging on the couch and doodling. I envision this, but, in the end, I keep him the same age. Although I am aware this is not reality, and also aware that I can influence it, I don't think I was aware that I was actually dreaming. It was pretty strange.

He has been playing with the computer and listening to music as well, and he has some kind of video game. It is not playstation or gameboy but something else which begins with P. I tell him he can use the computer on the guest account that my husband recently set up (about the only thing that's also true in the waking world), or play video games with the playstation, if he wants to, but he opts not to do so right now, and runs around playing. The dream fades back and forth between this house and my parents' house with the radioactive rock activities, switching scenes.

There's another later chapter to this dream, but I can't remember it.